Rachel’s life has been off the rails for almost as long as she can remember.
“I come from a really big mess.”
Rachel’s parents divorced when she was 9.
She ran away from her mom’s house a handful of times only to be returned by LPD. One day her mother had enough and packed Rachel’s bags for her. She was 12 years old.
Rachel moved in with her dad and stepmom. At 13, Rachel was molested by a relative of her stepmom. That same year, she was introduced to meth right at home.
Soon she began babysitting for drug dealers. She was paid in meth.
“Meth, marijuana, alcohol. I’d use anything I could get my hands on.” She was 14 and wanted to escape, forget, and numb herself.
“The people I was close to weren’t good people to get close to. I was always searching for God, but searching in the wrong places.”
Rachel dropped out of school when she was 16. At 17, she learned she’d soon become a mother. She also got sober for the first time in four years.
Rachel went back to school, graduated, and enrolled in nursing school.
She thought, “This is where my life gets back on track.”
Now a mother of three, Rachel was a full-time nursing school student who was holding down a full-time job in a hospital lab.
She was also in a domestically abusive relationship for 10 years.
Rachel was diagnosed with PTSD and major depressive disorder, onset at age 9.
She started using again. This time, she added K2 to the mix of Adderall, marijuana, and alcohol. “K2 was the worst addiction I’d ever had. I’d attempted suicide, I can’t even tell you how many times since I was 13.”
Rachel was high on K2 when she intentionally overdosed on a combination of prescription drugs.
She’d had enough. “I just wanted to rest.”
Rachel woke up in the ER, surrounded by former coworkers. From there she went to Crisis Center and St. Monica’s.
“I had no idea how sick I was, how far gone I was.”
Rachel knew she needed more help than just the resources of treatment.
“I used to pray and cry to God, ‘I don’t want to have to take a pill to function anymore!’”
In October 2016, she kicked her 12+ year Adderall addiction. She quit alcohol, marijuana, and cigarettes five months later.
In May 2017, Rachel came to the Mission and has transformed her life.
She’s worked with CenterPointe, ResCare, and volunteered at Center for People In Need. She’s going to church. She has been a member of the choir and is serving on the prayer team at the Mission’s church, Connect Church. She’s completed counseling.
Rachel now has the highest paying job of her life and she’s paid off a major debt that has lingered for 10 years.
She is a mom who’s had a hard journey, but says, “I am able to move forward with God.”
“The captivity of addiction is real. The spiritual battle is real.” Because of the mental illness, domestic, sexual, and substance abuse Rachel suffered, she’s relearning how to live. It took her a long time to realize that substance and abusive relationship addiction doesn’t have to be her “normal”.
After 25 years, Rachel is getting her life back on track.
“Most of us here are lacking one very specific thing, and that’s HOPE. And they offer that here. Without the Mission, I don’t know where I would be.”